Chapter Twelve: Hard to Swallow

Author’s Note

Well… I hope you like this chapter!

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Bella smiled and kissed Jeremy on his cheek, “I have to get going Jer, I promised I’d go see Andrew.”

Jeremy frowned, “Fine, but just so you know if you come back and I’m dead. it’s your father’s fault. He and Ric have decided that it would be useful for me to use weapons more. And as much confidence that I have in myself I do not trust myself with knives.”

“You’ll be fine.” Bella responded, “Take care of my wolf.” Bella said before she disappeared in front of Jeremy’s eyes. She appeared in the comfort of Andrews home in a matter of seconds.

“You’ve arrived!” Andrew commented with a grin. “I’m glad you’re here, we have a busy night ahead of us. There was an outbreak of chicken pox recently, and I do not want to see any children pass away.”

Bella nodded quickly following Andrew to make the walk to the center where he worked. “How many of the kids have chicken pox?”

“Almost all of them. I’ve managed to keep the babies from getting sick, but the other children are suffering and I don’t have enough time to heal them all. Not to mention that it would be suspicious if miraculously all the children were healed.” Andrew said his pace quickened and Bella could tell by his stance that he was stressed to get these children all healed up.

Bella followed Andrew into the orphanage and quickly began to do as she was instructed. She admired Andrew’s ability to continue to smile and make the children laugh even in the environment they were in. Bella worked quietly, letting the feeling of being able to heal someone take over her mind and block away any thoughts.

It was later in the night that Bella was folding bedsheets that Andrew and her finally spoke since arriving at the center.

“How are you doing?” Andrew questioned moving to stand in front of Bella to help her fold the sheets.

“I’m fine.” Bella responded with a nod of her head.

Andrew smiled fondly at Bella. “My dear, you cannot lie. What is happening in your life? How are things going with your boyfriend? I’m all ears if you want to speak about what’s bothering you.”

Bella smiled, “Did you know that vampires have soulmates?”

“I’m aware of the legend. It’s often believed that everyone has a soulmate.” Andrew responded folding the sheets. “It’s all about whether you believe in the idea of soulmates or not.”

“I do believe that not only vampires, but humans as well have soulmates. But the thing with Vampires is that often they get two soulmates, because they tend to lose their soul mate once they turn into vampires. Their next soulmate comes once they’re vampires, sometimes they’ll be vampires, other times they’ll be human.” Bella responded with a frown.

Andrew hummed in response. “So, it is possible for a human to have a vampire soulmate. I’ve always wondered, it seemed strange.”

“That’s the thing, a human can be mated to both a vampire and a human at the same time. But fate will keep the two humans away from each other so that the vampire will be able to have their soulmate.” Bella responded with a frown. “So, unknowingly, a human loses their intended soulmate to be with their secondary soulmate, the vampire.”

“By loses you mean their human soulmate dies?” Andrew questions curiously. “How did you figure that out?”

“When I was younger, my father’s friend Nik had these books and he was the one who introduced the idea to me. I’ve told you before how no matter what I do I or Jeremy always end up dying. I came to realize that Jeremy is my soulmate, but fate had meant for him to die, which he did. The only problem was that Jeremy didn’t stay dead, and we met which was not something we were supposed to do. Now, one of us, Jeremy mostly, is going to repeatedly die, because I was supposed to fall in love with a vampire.” Bella finished with a sigh. “The only way for me to stay alive is for Jeremy to die and the only way for Jeremy to live is for me to die.”

Andrew tensed. “I hope you haven’t made any hasty decisions.”

Bella smiled, “I’ve decided to die, but not really. I have this plan, where I fake my death and remove myself permanently from my life as Isabella Swan. This way, Jeremy will be able to live, without either of us really having to die. I’m just scared, I don’t know if my dad will approve, but I know that this will work. And I’m more than willing to do anything to keep Jeremy alive.”

Andrew smiled, “When you speak about Jeremy, I wish I had that sort of connection with someone.  Even if it’s short lived, you should be happy to experience such love with someone.”

“I just…” Bella sighed, “This will help. I know it will, the Volturi will be able to learn of my death I’ll be safer than I have ever been before. I just don’t want to give Jeremy up, it’s selfish and I know that I have to in order for him to be safe, but it hurts.”

“This is nothing more than a bump in the road for you, my dear.” Andrew responded with a grin. “You are meant to do wonderful things, and as long as you see the joy in life, the pain won’t be as great. I can’t imagine the hurt your feeling, but I know that if anyone can get through this, it’s you.  Do not think of this as the end of your relationship with Jeremy, think of it as a new beginning. If you are truly meant to be together, then you will be, but only when the time is right for the both of you.”

Bella gave a small smile. “I certainly hope this isn’t the end of Jeremy and I.”

“As long as you continue to hope and believe that you will be together again, then you will be.” Andrew responded.

Bella grinned, “You know, if this job ever gets boring you could be a great therapist.”

Andrew chuckled, “My heart lies here.”

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Bella typed away at her computer while Jeremy worked on an English paper.  She was going to make a very clear and unbreakable plan that would keep Jeremy safe. Currently, the only variable in her plan was Elizabeth, but once she had that she could present her idea to her dad.

“You know, you could tell me whatever it is that you’re planning.” Jeremy said looking up from the screen of his computer.

“I’m going to save your life.” Bella responded looking over her shoulder and smiling at Jeremy. “I don’t want to brag, but I’m a sort of a genius.”

Jeremy laughed, “What is your plan so far? More importantly, do you and I both get to stay alive?”

Bella grinned and closed her computer. “I told you, I’m a genius.” She moved and laid down beside Jeremy, resting her head on his shoulder. “This paper was due two days ago.”

“I’m aware, and I’m charming enough that I was given an extension.” Jeremy responded setting his computer aside and moving to wrap Bella up in his arms. “We’re going to be okay, you know.”

“How can you be so sure?” Bella questioned in response, burying herself further into the warmth Jeremy’s embrace offered her.

“I’m an optimist.” Jeremy responded with a smile. “And I can feel it, in the pit of my stomach I know we’re going to be okay. It’s not going to be easy and it may hurt, but eventually everything will work out okay.”

Bella moved so she could see Jeremy’s face and took in the familiar features of his face. She wanted to remember this for the moments that she wouldn’t be able to be this close to him anymore. “What if it takes years? None of this may stop, your life or my life will continue to be in danger until I’m able to complete my transition. Is it worth it?”

Jeremy frowned, taking in the sorrow on Bella’s face. “It could be centuries, but it would be worth it. You’re worth it. My dad used to tell me all the time that he knew my mom was the one for him the moment they met, when he got to know her there was no doubt in his mind.” Jeremy leaned down and lightly brushed his lips against Bella’s. He pulled back a few moments later and rested his forehead against her own. “There is no doubt in my mind that you’re the one for me, so if I have to wait years for the two of us to be able to live a relatively normal existence, then I’ll wait. You’re worth that.”

Bella smiled, her eyes watering slightly so she closed them. She buried her head in the crook of Jeremy’s neck, “It’s not going to be easy.”

“Nothing good is ever easy.” Jeremy replied, a wave of fear washing over him. He was now beginning to realize that whatever plan Bella had come up with would hurt them both, but the pain would be worth the reward in the end. It had to be.

What felt like minutes later, but was close to two hours later Ric poked his head into the room. “Don’t mean to disturb your nap or whatever, but Luther is downstairs and he brought swords.”

Bella smiled, “Don’t forget to take your band-aids with you, Jer.”

Jeremy frowned, “I hate your teleportation.” He announced as he and Bella stood.

Bella leaned over and kissed Jeremy’s cheek. “I love teleportation.”

Jeremy rolled his eyes as Bella was gone in a second. “Swords? I thought we were moving on to something else?”

“Vanessa says if Luther is anything he’s meticulous.” Alaric responded with a grin. “And he’s making sure you’re capable of doing anything with your special hunter skills. Come on, Van and I have a bet going on that you’ll cut a finger off, I have faith in you so don’t let me down.”

“How much are you betting?” Jeremy questioned following Ric down the stairs, “And do I get a cut of the money?”

“We’re not betting money.” Alaric responded with a smirk.

Jeremy crinkled his nose. “Okay, that’s gross.”

Bella appeared at the doorway of an apartment in New York. She knocked softly before taking a step back, crossing her arms behind her back and waiting for the answer.

“I was expecting a pizza delivery boy, but you’re a wonderful surprise.” A small blonde said as she leaned against the doorway and eyed Bella. “Come in, Maeva.”

Bella sighed, “I would really like it if you just called me Bella.”

“My bad, I’m so used to your dad calling you by Maeva I just follow what he says.” The small woman responded moving aside and letting Bella into the apartment. “So, what are you doing here?”

“I’m going to die and I need your help making sure that it all goes smoothly.” Bella said entering the apartment.

“Oh sweetheart, you’re going to have to give me more info or you’ll dad will bury me alive.” Elizabeth responded closing the door. “So, what is it? Because no one is going to be this calm if they’re really dying.”

Bella smiled, “I’m not really dying. I’m just going to pretend I am and have everyone I love and know think I’m dead so that the love of my life doesn’t end up dying a grizzly death.”

“You want me to take your place and pretend to die?” Elizabeth questioned with a smirk.

“Essentially yes.” Bella responded with a shrug. “The problem is I don’t know how I’m going to die, I’m just vaguely sure it’s going to be about a week before my graduation.”

“Can I at least know exactly why this is happening? Last any of us heard, you were safe and profoundly happy with your boyfriend and your friends.” Elizabeth responded taking a seat across from Bella in the living room. “What’s changed?”

Bella sighed, “Quite a lot, fate is sort of an asshole.”

“Oh sweetheart. If you were old enough to drink I’d offer you something strong.”

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Bella returned to her home at close to dawn. She had successfully convinced Elizabeth to be a part of her plan, and now all she had left to do was put the plan in writing before she handed it over to her dad.

Bella was finishing up her writing when she heard Rosko stand and bark at the window. She stood half-expecting the ever present creepy Cullen at her window. She raised an eyebrow instead as she saw Jeremy balancing on the branch of the tree outside her window.

“You know, there’s this thing called a door.” Bella said as she opened her window.

Jeremy grinned. “I thought this was every girl’s dream? And Charlie is very likely to kill me if I try using the front door at this time of day.”

“Come in before you end up falling off and hurting yourself.” Bella said grinning as she helped Jeremy enter the room. “Did you just climb that tree to try and be romantic, or did you come here for a better reason?”

“I want to know what your plan is, so I can try and make you feel better about it.” Jeremy responded letting his hand mindlessly pet Rosko’s head. “It’s what adorably kind boyfriends do.”

Bella smiled and turned around and printed out the essay she had written. She handed the papers to Jeremy. “Here you go.”

Jeremy laughed lightly, “You wrote a paper about this? Bumble B, you are my favorite nerd.” Jeremy smiled and tugged Bella closer to him and kissed her. “You need to get some sleep, so come on.”

Bella laughed, “Are you tucking me into bed? Do I get a bedtime story too?”

“Only if you’re good.” Jeremy responded with a smile, he watched as Bella got into the bed, Rosko moving to lay at her feet comfortably. Jeremy got into the bed beside her, his back resting against the headboard as he planned to stay up and read the well thought out plan that Bella had created.

Bella rested her head on Jeremy’s lap. “I’m sorry ahead of time. I know you won’t like it, but it’s the only logical way.”

Jeremy nodded running his hand through Bella’s hair. “Get some sleep, Bumble B, we can talk about this more in the morning.”

Bella nodded and gave a small yawn. “You’ll have to sneak back out, I’m sure Charlie will murder you if he finds you in here.”


  1. It seems like a workable, but emotionally painful plan. Poor Bella and Jeremy………. Great chapter! 🙂
    I re-read Reaper Twins and The Reaping of New Orleans yesterday. I’ve been thinking about how Marcel will meet his doom at the hands of Bella and Niklaus (maybe Kol and Marco too) and what cute antics little baby Vincent and Violet will do. All of your stories get me thinking……..

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  2. this is gonna be tricky…..

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  3. Thanks for the update;)

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  4. I’m glad that she’s telling jeremy and not doing it behind his back. I love everything you write. Great chapter.

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  5. Oh man these two have to go through so much to be together. It does seem like a good logical plan but from a emotional standpoint it seriously sucks. I imagine for this to work she will need to stay away from him until she reach maturation at 25 or else the dreams will only come back. Like Jer said it will be worth it at the end and after it is all said and done. I hope her and her friends wreck Volturi and the Cullens. Looking forward to the next chapter.

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  6. I hope they get through this I like them being together.

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