Chapter Eight: Can’t Hold Back

Author’s Note

Sorry I left you on kind of a cliff hanger… Oops

Tell me what you think, and I hope you enjoy!

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Jeremy knocked on the Swan house front door, but was stunned when there was no answer. Bella was usually fast to open the door, that or he would hear her shout to him. He reached for his phone to see Bella had sent him a text just seconds after he knocked on the door.

With Luther. Can’t see you right now, sorry.

Jeremy sighed and turned around, he felt something was wrong in the pit of his stomach, but he’d give Bella the benefit of the doubt. He responded quickly before crossing the street to head back to his home.

Jeremy entered his home, but paused as he could hear Bella playing her cello. If she was home, why wouldn’t she talk to him? Jeremy looked at Bella’s home from the window and questioned if he should go back or not. He decided against it, he would give Bella the space she obviously wanted.

He went up to his room and sat on his bed, grabbing his sketch pad and decided he’d waste some time before he texted Bella again to see how she was doing.

Bella set her cello to the side as she just wasn’t feeling the music anymore. Her eyes were swollen from the hours of crying she had done the night before. She was beginning to feel the effect of a sleepless night, and she refused to get any amount of sleep if it meant having to watch Jeremy die all over again.

Bella looked down as Rosko rested his head on her knee. “Why don’t we go for a run in the woods, Rosko?” Bella stood up, she needed to get out of the house before her mind drove her crazy. She needed to escape the sight of the death of someone she loved.

Bella headed straight into the woods with Rosko at her side, no direction in mind just the need to keep going. Once they were in the cover of the trees Bella took off running, she didn’t focus on anything but the sound of her feet hitting the ground and the beat of her heart pounding in her chest.

Bella stood from her spot on the broken tree branch and looked up at the sky. Had she been sitting on that tree branch for so long? Since when had it gotten so dark out? She looked around taking in her surroundings and realizing she didn’t really know where she was.

“Where the hell are we, Rosko?” She looked at the wolf who didn’t seem to care about her question. She reached down and wrapped one arm around the wolf before the two of them teleported back to the house.

Now in her room, Bella let Rosko lay on her bed while she headed into the bathroom to shower. She could hear the sound of Charlie watching T.V. in the living room, and the smell of a pizza he most likely ordered for dinner. At least she wouldn’t have to explain swollen eyes to her dad anymore.

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Jeremy looked down at his phone as it rang with a message notification, he was more than surprised that Bella had answered his text questioning her well-being.

I’m fine.

Jeremy let out a sigh as a one word response didn’t really seem like Bella. He set down his phone and rubbed his hands down his face in distress. He wasn’t sure if this was Bella’s way of pushing him away, but he sure as hell wasn’t going to let her push him away. He stood grabbing his phone and his coat, before he hurriedly left the house and headed over to Bella’s home. He knew that at this point Charlie was already sleeping, and he didn’t want to get on the Chief’s bad side for knocking on his front door so late in the night.

He went over to the tree outside of Bella’s window and easily climbed up to her window. He was relieved as the window was left unlocked and he easily pushed it open before climbing into the room. He ignored the growl of the wolf, instead meeting Bella’s eyes to see that she had recently been crying.

“Jer, what are you doing here?” Bella whispered as she sat up on the bed, wiping her face to hide the evidence that she had been crying.

“You were ignoring me.” Jeremy said simply. “I was scared that you were pushing me away, I’m worried about you, B.”

Bella sighed, “I’m fine, just a bad dream.”

Jeremy nodded, “Okay. Want to tell me about it? I want to help you, you just have to let me.”

Bella sighed and looked down at her hands. “I’ve had this new vision, were I don’t die.”

Jeremy took a step forward approaching the bed slowly. “That’s a good thing, B.”

Bella shook her head. “It’s not.” She assured staring up at him, her red eyes glowing brightly at him. “I’ve had this vision three times, and I can’t figure out how to change it. The first time was last night, and then again this morning just before you came over, and a few minutes ago. I can’t seem to escape it, and it’s scaring me.”

Jeremy sat down on the bed beside Bella. “What happens in the dream?”

“We’re in the woods, and I’m attacked by Carsile and you’re attacked by Edward. By the time, I get to you Edward has killed you and I have to watch you die.” Bella responded in a low whisper. “I don’t know what to do to change it. I don’t know how to save you, Jer, and I don’t want to lose you.”

Jeremy nodded, “I can’t say I’m happy to know that I die, but I am happy you’re not dying. You don’t have to figure out how to save me on your own, B, I’m not a genuis, but I’m more than capable of helping you out.”

Bella sighed, “I don’t want to go to sleep, I don’t want to see that vision again.”

Jeremy nodded, “Okay.” He said taking off his shoes and joining Bella on the bed and wrapping his arm around her. “What if I go to sleep, and you use your power to go into my dream, you won’t see the vision anymore, and you can show me your gift first hand.”

Bella nodded, “Thanks for coming, Jer.”

Jeremy smiled as Bella was already falling asleep in his arms. He shifted them around a little and got comfortable with Bella in his arms.

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“It’s a new semester, Jer.” Bella said stepping out of his car and to the parking lot of the school. “It was a sure thing we wouldn’t have all our classes together. I think you should be happy we still have the majority of our classes together.”

“Can you imagine how annoying it will be if I have any classes with Jessica and Lauren and I have to sit next to them alone?” Jeremy exclaimed with an affronted look. He smiled as Bella laughed at him, he placed his arm around her shoulders and walked with her into the school. “I can’t believe you decided to take music class on your last semester.”

Bella smiled, “I didn’t decide to take it, the principal called my dad and said that the school needed its best students in their new program to help build it and make it popular for other students. My dad asked me to do it for the sake of his sanity as the principal or his wife kept calling or showing up at his work.”

Jeremy smiled, he leaned in and kissed Bella’s temple. “You’re going to make every other member seem pathetic.”

Bella rolled her eyes at him but kept a small smile on her face. “You can’t see it, but I’m rolling my eyes at you.”

“I could tell.” Jeremy responded with a smirk. “Happy first day to our last semester.” He whispered to Bella as they were both approached by their friends.

Bella smiled and leaned against Jeremy, she wasn’t sure how he did it, but he always made her feel better. The last few days had been hard for her and for Jeremy, but they were slowly starting to figure out a plan to insure that Jeremy would be alive.

“I heard you’re going into the new music program, Bella.” Angela said quietly between all the chatter .

“Yes, Principal Greene thought it would be a good idea for me to be one of the first to join.” Bella responded.

“That’s great, I heard that he also managed to convince Edward Cullen to join. Apparently, he’s very good on the piano.” Angela added with a smile. “Maybe the two of you together could play at prom, because our budget was blown for the winter formal.”

Bella fidgeted slightly. “Maybe.” She responded trying to hide how uncomfortable she was with the mention of Edward.

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Bella smiled as Jeremy kissed her, her hand went around his neck to hold him closer as their kiss grew a little stronger. “I have to get to class.” She whispered pulling away from their kiss. “I’ll see you in an hour.”

Jeremy sighed, “Fine. Be safe.” He responded watching her head into the classroom, her cello case in hand. He turned around and headed to his last class of the day, ready to go home to try and figure out a way for him not to die.

Bella took in a deep breath and set up her cello at a corner of the room. There were only three people in the class, one of course was the teacher, and the other was Edward. She had really hoped there would be more people in this group. She avoided Edward’s gaze as the teacher spoke, they were both instructed to play twinkle little star. Something Bella saw as ridiculous, if she was considered one of the best musicians in the school why would she have to play a song so simplistic.

“No offense, but I haven’t played something so simple since before elementary. If you want to see my skill give me something harder to do, don’t give me something meant for amateurs.” Bella said preparing her cello. “I don’t mean to seem vain, but that was the worst suggestion for someone who has tried vigorously to perfect their talent”

“Alright, Mrs. Swan.” The female teacher said crossing her arms over her chest, a smug smirk on her face. “If you think you’re so talented, why don’t you play prokofiev sinfonia concertante. That is, if you know how to play it.”

Bella smirked and prepared her cello. She took in a deep breath and began to play the song with ease, it was the one she played in the fifth grade, it had won her the state competition that year. Bella stopped playing after ten minutes, and with a smug smirk she said, “Was that satisfactory to you? The judges thought so when I won a competition for it when I was in 5th grade.”

The teacher sighed, “Alright, I’m Mrs. Robinson, I’m a music teacher in Seattle. It seems Miss Swan is more than capable on her instrument, how about you Mr. Cullen? Do you mind giving us a show of your talent?”

Edward gave a warm smile. “Of course,.” He responded before he ran his fingers over the keys gently before beginning to play one of his favored songs.

Bella hated to admit it, but he was a great piano player, that didn’t change the fact that she absolutely hated him. She ignored his gaze as he finished and focused on the teacher who seemed enchanted with Edward’s music. Mrs. Robinson was more than excited to showcase both of their talents in the upcoming assembly next week. It was clear she had thought both students were amateurs and would need more time, but now she was more than exited to have them do some sort of performance.

Bella listened as the teacher began to ramble ideas of popular songs the two of them could play together. She could feel the gaze of Edward on her as the teacher spoke, but as much as she wanted to yell at him to look away she kept quiet. As soon as the bell rang she put her cello away in her case before grabbing her backpack and her case to head out.

“I can help you with that.” Edward said approaching Bella as she exited the classroom.

“I can carry it on my own.” Bella responded before moving forward to walk towards the parking lot.

“I think we got off on the wrong foot last semester.” Edward said keeping up to her pace. “I’m Edward Cullen, and it seems we’re going to be working together in this class.”

Bella nodded, “I’m aware.” She couldn’t help but smile as she saw Jeremy from the corner of her eye. He approached her quickly and kissed her cheek as he took her cello case from her hand. “Goodbye, Edward.” Bella said as she took Jeremy’s hand and walked away.

“He’s so creepy.” Jeremy whispered as they approached his car. He looked over his shoulder to see that Edward was by his car on the other side of the parking lot and was intently staring at the two of them. “And he’s still staring at you.”

Bella sighed, “Let’s just get out of here. How was study hall?”

Jeremy sighed, “I was between Jessica and Lauren all of class. They kept going on and on about Mike and Tyler. Apparently, Mike is thinking of asking some underclassman to the spring fling, and Jessica is not having any of that. Oh, and Eric is going to try and get back together with Angela, apparently he misses her, but he’s not aware that Ben and Angela are already together. It’s all very dramatic.”

Bella laughed, “It’s obvious you weren’t paying attention to their gossip.”

“It’s hard not to, they talk really loudly and I get bored.” Jeremy responded placing Bella’s cello in the back of his car. “So, what’s the plan for today.”

“I’ve decided to finally relent, and call Vanessa and have her come down here to help me develop some sort of plan.” Bella responded quietly.

Jeremy froze slightly. “Really? Can I meet her?”

Bella rolled her eyes. “I sort of need you there, the entire point is to help keep you alive.”

“Great!” Jeremy said happily getting into the vehicle. “So, what’s her gift?”

Bella smiled, “Vanessa has wings, she can fly. Her gift was the only gift I’ve ever really wanted to have.”

“Like bat wings or you know ones with feathers?” Jeremy questioned curiously.

Bella laughed, “Feathers, they’re brown and white. They’re gigantic, and amazing to see.”

“But don’t they make her stand out? Wouldn’t someone spot her flying around?” Jeremy questioned in confusion. “That has to be obvious.”

Bella smiled, “At first, but once Vanessa got control over them she could go invisible when flying. All gifts take time to master, and once they’re mastered you can do beautiful things with them.”

“So, every gift you have someone else has too?” Jeremy questioned as he drove.

“Not my dreaming ability, that one is my own, all the others someone else has them too.” Bella responded. “Because someone else has my other gifts, that’s how I know how to master them so quickly, I can learn from their experience.”

“So, who has the healing ability?” Jeremy questioned.

“His name is Andrew.” Bella responded. “He’s one of the nicest people according to my father, he travels to poverty stricken areas and works as a doctor were he heals people in need for no charge.”

Jeremy pulled into the Swan house. “I’m going to be fine, bumble B.” Jeremy said reaching over to take Bella’s hand in his. “I’ve died before, and I’m still here, I’ll be fine.”

Bella smiled thankfully. “I don’t like seeing people I care about die.”

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Bella watched curiously as Jeremy introduced Vanessa to Alaric. She could practically see both their eyes turn into hearts as they spoke quietly to each other. She smiled as Jeremy slowly backed away from the two as they talked animatedly with each other.

“I thought they were supposed to help us, not flirt with each other.” Jeremy said as he stood beside Bella and watched the two.

“You put two equally interesting and lonely people together and you get a match made in heaven.” Bella responded quietly. “Come on, let’s give them some space and lets go to my house.”

Jeremy wrapped his arm around her waist as they headed outside. “We’re going to be okay. I’m sure there’s an easy solution to avoid my death. What we should talk about is the realization that the reason I might die is because Edward Cullen has a crush on you.”

Bella sighed, “You can’t tell, but I’m rolling my eyes at you.”

Jeremy smiled he paused their walking and turned Bella around so she could face him. “I can tell.” He responded easily. “I can also tell that you’re scared, and I know that feeling because I was scared when you were the one that was going to die. We’re going to be fine, bumble B. I know that for a fact, because we’re both stubborn and we’re both going to do whatever’s possible to make sure that the other lives.”

Jeremy leaned down and kissed her, his hands tightening around her waist to keep her closely pressed against him. He pulled away for a moment and pressed his forehead against her own. “How about we forget about your dreams for the day, and spend the rest of the evening doing regular teenage things?”

Bella smiled, “Is this your clever way to see if I’m willing to rebel against my fathers and let you sleep with me?”

Jeremy laughed lightly. “You caught me.”

“Alright, let’s go then.” Bella said turning and taking Jeremy’s hand in hers before she walked towards her home.

Jeremy chuckled as he followed after. “You’re my favorite person, B.”

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Bella took in a deep breath and looked up at Jeremy from her spot on his chest. He was sound asleep, but she couldn’t bring herself to close her eyes. She moved slightly upward and kissed his cheek before she rested her head back on his chest and closed her eyes.

Bella opened her eyes to the sight of being once again in the forest. Her heart dropped as she knew she was back in her own personal hell.

She hated the feeling of not being able to change any of the events in this vision. Her eyes watered with tears as she pressed her hands up against Jeremy’s chest to heal him. Her eyes widened as it started to work and his wound was healing, but not fast enough.

Bella woke up and gasped, her hand resting on Jeremy’s chest as she startled him awake.

“Hey, bumble B.” Jeremy said sitting up in the bed. “Bad vision again?”

Bella shook her head. “No. I was interpreting it wrong, I didn’t need to figure out how to prevent you from dying, I needed to figure out how to heal you.”  She leaned forward and kissed his lips lightly. “I’ll see you in the morning. Have a good sleep.”

Before Jeremy could respond Bella was gone. He fell back into his bed and groaned. “Teleportation.”

Bella appeared in front of her father slightly startling him. “I need Andrew’s location, it’s about perfecting my gift.”

Luther smiled, “Of course, I do hope your boyfriend will end up being alright.”

Bella sighed, “How do you know that?”

“I spoke with Vanessa, and before you questioned my morals, I didn’t have to use my gift on her. She let it slip before continuing to talk about a man named Alaric, she seems to be infatuated with him.” Luther said he reached over to his phone and searched it before turning back to Bella. “I have sent you his coordinates, Maeva, but be safe, he’s in Rome and that is too close to the Volturi for my liking.”

Bella nodded, “I’ll be fine.” She smiled, “I thought you’d be happy, you’re always going on about practicing my gifts. I’ll call you tomorrow, dad.” She said before disappearing. She finally had a plan that seemed moderately successful. She needed to practice her gift, and who better to learn from then the person whom has already mastered the gift.


  1. Well I love that Jeremy was not about to let Bella pull away. Working on a problem with someone always cuts the problem in half. That was the saying I was always taught.
    But dam! That music teacher and Edward both are creepy as hell aren’t they? —shivers—
    And I hope Bella’s plan to perfect her ‘healing’ talent goes well. Great chapter as usual. 🙂

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  2. Awesome as always hon. Thanks, and I can’t wait to read more…huggs.

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  3. that’s actually a brilliant plan. way to go Bella. keeping my fingers cross. 😉

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  4. I hope her learning more about the healing ability will save Jeremy.


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